Friday, January 30, 2009
Get out of Jail Free
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Birding Help
Anyone out there know what this is? He appeared on our lawn this afternoon, stalked around a bit, scared off the little birds, and then flew away.
Yes Sir, That's My Baby
Recovery is a funny thing, and it really hit home today when I was looking for something, and Abe remarked, "I haven't lived at home for the last two weeks either." Right. We weren't living at home. That really hit me. That's partly why it feels SO good to be home. I'm rediscovering the things I like about being here, and remembering the harsh side too (laundry!). Mostly, normal never felt so good.
Monday, January 26, 2009
And on Being Back at the Clinic
Sunday, January 25, 2009
On Being Home
Getting Better All the Time
Friday, January 23, 2009
A Good Shabbos
Shabbat Shalom from Cleveland.
Channeling Tony Orlando and Dawn
Auntie Gina predicted that after this was all over we would feel like a black cloud had lifted from our lives. In most ways, she's right. After recovery, it's time to move on and enjoy our little girl.
Bayla and I (and the rest of our family too) just need some quiet time at home to recover from the surgery, the extreme lack of sleep, beeing poked, prodded, and examined. We are DEFINITELY looking forward to this Shabbat.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Show Me the Way to Go Home
Show me the way to go home
I'm tired and I want to go to bed
I had a little drink about an hour ago
And it went right to my head
Well we wish we had had a drink, but for some reason the Clinic doesn't have a bar. Bayla has been fever-free for over 24 hours, her last drainage tube from her chest was removed a while ago, and they're about to remove her pace wires (never needed, thank G-d, but there just in case). This afternoon, we'll have an echocardiogram, and then another round of waiting. It's hard how time moves here--both too fast and too slow.
Let's Go! Home Edition
Accommodations: Wonderful beds, topped with homey covers, squishy pillows.
Dining: Meals to taste, including scrambled eggs, buttered homemade toast, tea upon request, and the occasional chocolate for desert. Be sure to ask for the house special of harisa on top of anything and everything. Dani's fried potatoes are the highlight of the dining experience.
Getting Friendly With the Locals: Be sure to check out the icicles, present everywhere. Touch the snow, ponder the fact that Eskimos have 50 different words for it. Transport yourself back to the time you found out that that information is actually false. Wonder at the cold, and how the animals and natives survived.
Entertainment: Bayla's antics.
Sites to See: Pay homage to G-d in the living room, make a stop in the sun-filled family room for a beautiful view of the back yard.
Kids/Pets Friendly: Definitely.
Reservations: Make yours now, we've reserved the near future.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
The Key
The Next American Idol
The private room is really only because they think she might still be infectious. We think it's a bonus because there is a bathroom, and an extra bed. Don't tell the nurses that we're going to actually USE the extra bed. Coby dropped off Naomi and Dalia on his way to wrestling practice. Abe took Dalia and himself home, and Naomi is staying for a sleep-over/sewathon. Let's hope for a quiet night, no more fever and mention of the "H" word (HOME).
Do You Know the Way to San Jose?
You might, and I certainly might, but I can't get there without the CAR KEYS that I've lost somewhere in the hospital. Coby, I hope you don't mind your car being snowed in at the Cleveland Clinic long term, as I search and search and search for the key...if anyone out there knows where the spare is, let me know.
Much more pressingly, Bayla's fever is down to 99! And it turns out that Dr. Mumtaz "didn't know" that you're not allowed to sleep in bed with a child under the age of two. Whoops. Really, in the end, I didn't sleep anyway, more just laid awake with her all night...
Good Morning Sunshine
Yesterday, Coby drove Anna to the Akron airport (2 hours round trip), and then came to the hospital on the way to wrestling on the West Side. Frustratingly, his coach got a business call and had to leave almost right away. Instead, he drove to the JCC and worked out there, but got stuck in traffic on the way. Anna went back to college, and got to NYC in time to hop in a cab and make it to work. Naomi took Dalia to get braces. She just has braces and wires on her front two teeth at this point, but we anticipate more later. Dani was back and forth to the hospital, and I think caught the inauguration at Gramma and Grampas house.
Let's hope for more improvements today.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Bayla Improves
Reunited
1) Dr. Mumtaz pointed out that since Bayla's chest tube drainage is still milky-white, we are not 100% meeting our goal through de-fatted breastmilk. Instead, he says, just nurse her, sleep with her (phew), and we'll wait it out, checking w/daily chest x-rays for a resolution. Yippee!
2) Bayla's fever is trending downward, and she hasn't gone over 102 all day long.
Answer of the Day
Evidently, the answer (see previous post) of the day is a resounding YES. By the time I arrived at the hospital, Bayla had woken up with a small smile for Abe, and the CT scan had been cancelled (not enough information for the amount of distress for the child). Bayla, as you can see, has always been a great kisser. She's also guzzling her milk, which is gratifying given what we've had to go through to get it ready for her.
Question of the Day
On the family front, Anna goes back to college today, and Dalia gets braces. Coby and Dani are going to clean their room (right?), and Naomi will shuttle back and forth. Off to the hospital.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Today was a nice one for visiting. As you can see from the blurriness of the picture, Bayla was pretty active. She was up to all her tricks, flailing, doing crazy crunches to try to get upright, and rolling over. We aren't allowed to let her roll onto her stomach for fear of hurting her scar, but we could hold her on our laps in an upright position, which she seemed to enjoy. Being able to hold her was terrific.
Bayla continues to be feverish, though it now seems to be dropping, her temp hasn't gotten below 102F in a while. Because of this, the doctors decided to put an IV in her. Keep Bayla hydrated and start the antibiotics, that's the plan. Our anesthesiologist is great, and she managed to get her just sedated enough to tolerate the needle without it being so much that she would need to be intubated. It also let her nap a bit, though she has yet to get even a solid 60 minutes of sleep.
Happily, we have gotten the OK to feed Bayla breastmilk again, provided it is skimmed. We're trying all sorts of shenanigans to skim the fat off the top, and saving it until she is digesting well enough to need it again. The formula we were giving her smelled, and not in an appetizing way. She is loving the breastmilk, and eating much more enthusiastically now.
The day was capped off by a great dinner over at Grandma and Grandpa's, and we all --except Dad, who is staying the night-- came home to collapse into bed.
-Naomi
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun or in which Big Bad John Takes More Bloood
Meanwhile, the chest tube drainage looks a bit better, and she's on special short-chain-fat formula which should help improve the situation. The only part that's truly hard is that it looks like we're in for the long haul. It's so disorienting being in the hospital for so long--is it day or night? Warm? Cold? We could be in Tahiti, or we could be in Cleveland, it's hard to tell because we're so continually inside (although, I'm pretty sure it's NOT Tahiti). I'm loving these kids wherever we are.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Front Step, Back Step, Side Step, Cha Cha Cha
Back to the PICU (Pediatric Intensive Care Unit) for us. It took a team of many to find a vein for Bayla--she's got an IV antibiotic in right now, and things are not super great, so they're sending us back. Really, that's fine with us, and we probably were sent out a bit too early anyway. Anna came and sat with Bayla this morning, Gramma and Grampa came for a long visit, and Coby is going to go get Naomi from the airport. Thanks again for all the food, good wishes, prayers, visits and cards.
I Feel Your Temperature Risin'
One Step Forward, Two Steps Sideways
How Being in the Hospital is Like a Game of Poker
3 yoga mats on the floor beats one miserable green plasticy chair.
1 Bikur Cholim meal beats any number of Mon Cuisine (or is it NON Cuisine) hospital meals (even if they are delivered on styrofoam trays).
1 cup of tea with hot water from the Ronald McDonald room beats weak coffee from a vending machine.
1 fussy baby up all night beats 1 sedated baby, too weak to open her eyes. We love you, Bayla.
And to quote Uncle Sam, "One full house beats them all, and at this rate, you'll be there soon."
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Coming Around
Bayla is getting stronger every hour. I left the hospital tonight to go home, shower, and see the kids. By the time I returned, she was even more alert than before. She is nursing well, and is SO happy to have her arms free so she can suck her thumb. I read her a story (courtesy of Dalia), and hopefully, we'll pass another uneventful night.
A Great Shabbos, In Fact
In the morning Bayla woke up, made intent eye contact and by 10:00 a.m. Shosh was nursing her with Dr. Mavroudis' ok. We also ate well, courtesy of the remarkable Cleveland Bikkur Cholim organization which even had a hot cholent in their hospitality room. (19th Cen. poet Heinrich Heine on cholent: "Cholent, ray of light immortal!/Cholent, daughter of Elysium!/So would Schiller’s song have resounded,/ Had he ever tasted Cholent).
By the afternoon, Bayla had gone from her initial 6 pumps, and leads without number to just 1 open, but unattached peripheral line on her foot, and her cumbersome chest tubes which will come out tomorrow. Admittedly one of these lines came out by accident, which was messy and initially scary (Shosh can tell the story--I was downstairs getting the cholent), but not dangerous.
We have been moved out of intensive care in the PICU to ... I'm not sure what they call it aside from M40. "Less Intensive Care Unit" would be LICU, which has an unhygienic sound. This all suggests that Bayla may really set a record for infants here at the Clinic who have had a complete repair of Tetralogy of Fallot and AV Canal defects (bli ayin ha-ra etc.)
Friday, January 16, 2009
Getting Ready for Shabbos
Abe and I are home for a few minutes (tried to master the new SET board game with Dani and Dalia, but we're all too blown out to figure out the nuances) getting ready for shabbat. Thanks to Auntie EE, we're set for shabbat candles in the hospital. The set you see above actually turns on with a little switch, and the flames actually flicker! Pretty neat. Just can't wait to get Bayla in that "Got Bagels?" t-shirt...Anna took the kids to Barnes and Noble today, they spent their gift cards from Auntie Sarah. Dani got a novel about a hippie kid who doesn't have a TV and ends up getting sent to school. As Anna said, "It's a biography of himself". I'm looking forward to some quiet time with Abe and Bayla, and perhaps even a nap. Exhaustion is the key word around here. The Bikur Cholim hospitality room has not only a pantry, not only microwaves, but hot food including cholent...shabbat shalom.
Mercury Sinks But Spirits Rise in M43-05!
It was -13 Fahrenheit outside the Cleveland Clinic this morning and felt like -235 with the windchill (slightly colder than the surface temperature on the moon according to astronomers at Case Western Reserve University). But inside in room 5 of the PICU (Pediatric Intensive Care Unit, pron. "Pick You," as in choosing up teams for touch football), feelings were warm, as Bayla was extubated. Here she is, pictured without breathing tubes, wearing the hat knitted by her sister Anna during surgery. Dr. Mumtaz says she is recovering at a record pace for an AV Canal-Tetralogy of Fallot patient.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Ha Ha
How Bayla got her candy heart, or parallels with Raggedy Ann
Leaving Bayla Behind
Further on Day 1
Dr. Rosenthal, the attending cardiologist, says that his overall "gestalt" was that Bayla was doing very, very well. This is perhaps the only English sentence using the term that I have been happy to hear.
Thank you all for your emails, voicemails, comments and thoughts.
Day 1
Abe slept here over night, I went home to see the kids...we're holding up ok at this point. 1st step to recovery is to wean off the breathing tube, and sedation. Right now, they're working on making sure her lungs are properly moist/dry, and making sure her sodium levels are correct.
More as things develop.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Daisy Dolly
Successful Surgery!
My quick ignorant summary: he patched 4 holes (2 with gore-tex, 2 with borrowed pericardium from the pericardial sack that surrounds the heart), sutured another one closed, and left a tiny one, which she can live with. He also removed an obstructing "mystery muscle," which is occasionally found, and apparently known in the literature as "muscle x." Finally, he determined that the pulmonary artery was wide enough, despite the stenosis.
We should be able to see Bayla within the hour, once she is situated in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit.
CLOSING!
Still Waiting
Surgery Update
Surgery (& Waiting) Begins
Shoshana is sewing a little doll for Bayla. The pattern is in Dutch, which makes it harder. (If you know what knip de rest van de tricot kort af means, let her know).
I worried a lot about what to read and ended up with a siddur, Wordsworth, Aristotle's Ethics and The Thin Man, none of which seems quite right at the moment. Neither Aristotle nor Hammett was particularly interested in children. The Nicomachean Ethics may have been edited by Aristotle's son Nicomachus but the subject of childhood never comes up. Aristotle does say that if one isn't brought up into the virtues early then a good life is impossible, but how this is to happen and what it means for the parent as well as the child is left a mystery.--A mystery in which Hammett's Nick & Nora are entirely uninterested.
The Day Of
5:45 am Cleveland time, we gather Bayla, and head out in the 11 degree morning for the dark, solitary drive to the Cleveland Clinic
6:15 am we arrive at the hospital, and every one seems a little cheery given what we're about to go through. Check out the baby hospital gown--Bayla doesn't seem to mind it at all.
8:30 am Time for the big hand off. Bayla has blissfull fallen asleep, and we put her in the very capable arms of Julie Niezgoda, pediatric anesthesiologist. Our friend RR, a med student is going to observe the surgery, and rounded up Dr. Mavroudis' text book. It's both a wonder that anyone would want to observe open heart surgery, and a comfort that she's there.
After a tour of the facilities (thank you Samantha), we're sitting in the Ronald McDonald room. It's probably as close as we'll ever get to McDonalds...thanks, Bayla.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
No Nail Polish, 5 Psalms
One bummer is that they have a no nail polish policy! Don't they know a girl needs to look good for surgery? They need to attach the pulse-oxygen sensor to her toe (looks like a little band-aid), and don't want anything slippery. Oh well. That will give us something fun to do during recovery.
Later Coby, Anna, David and Abe went to Shul for Ma'ariv and Tehillim. We want to thank everyone who came out to pray for Bayla's health on a cold night.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Feeling the Love
Sunday, January 11, 2009
It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood
Friday, January 9, 2009
The Stuff Before the Stuff
- return all library books
- make sure Bayla has a pedicure
- call the diaper serivce to stop the flow of clean diapers for a few weeks
- find something good to read during the surgery
- buy a new winter coat
Well, the list could be never-ending, but luckily, we're hoping for a shabbat shalom, a big snow storm, and hunkering down under covers for a few days.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Tova Bayla Socher
• Playing with her parents, Shoshana & Abe and her older siblings, Dalia, Dani, Coby, Anna and Naomi.
• Nursing--a major accomplishment, given her long hospital stay, heart surgery and low muscle tone during the first few weeks of life.
• Messily eating mashed carrots, mushy peas, challa etc--and feeding others (her dog, her parents) the leftovers.
• Visiting her grandparents, Tammy & David, and cousin Samantha around the corner.
• Kissing and waving hi.
• Sitting up and rolling around.
• Blocks, books and eloquent babble.
She is scheduled for open heart surgery at the Cleveland Clinic on January 14th to correct an AV Canal defect and Tetralogy of Fallot. This is a serious, complicated surgery, but her surgeon Dr. Constantine Mavroudis is a world-famous pediatric heart surgeon and Bayla is a very strong baby.
Shoshana and I will try to update this blog, which will replace her earlier carepage, on a regular basis.